Who to please?
Senses have become numb… To the point that have lost the
judegement on which situations to react… and which situation to be patient…
Events that would trigger me earlier… no longer trigger me
today… Reached a phase where in I have to now think … ok…. Does this affect me…
if yes ok I got to react… Or think… I guess I reacted last time… didn’t work
out much in my favour… so rather be quite… which simply means that the event
does affect me but I rather chose to be quite and move on with things…
These days I am actually thinking what affects me… who affect
me… And those who do… are they truly worth investing time on…
Truly the sad part is… have drilled down to the fact that…
Only God affects me… which means His will affects me… Good or Harsh… Whatever
decision He would take like a parent in my life will affect me… Like it or not…
His Will I have to accept it… Not out of force … but out of love… as I know
that my spiritual parent can do no wrong… His actions are not influenced by
what people would think… His decisions for me are not based on people around…
His anger is not because I failed to reach the standards laid down by the world…
But because I failed to reach the standards laid down by He himself…
Why am I saying this…
As I am a little too tired of pleasing people around… Be it my
family… or friends... and so called people around (Char log kya bolenge types)…
I feel like I am split now… And that too for nothing… 99% things we do is to
satisfy other peoples expectation which is again not their own expectation but
of the world… In this rush and run do we get time to sit quitely and think what
really should matter… yes family… friends matter a lot… but do things because
you love them… but I see most of the times issues in relations happens more
because we fail to please the world as per them… but are we living to do that?
So finally I drilled down to the fact that its best to just please
God… who is just… and I see if I aim to please God alone… implicitly all
underlying relations will stabalize… as Gods path is always of Love… more you
are closer to God… more it is easy to
love others… more easy to forgive others… more easy to let go… as there
is no way you can love God and hate anyone… You know why… That little whisper
which I call Gods voice keeps echoing inside and it says…” please forgive… please let
go… don’t be rude… don’t lie… don’t be angry…” Trust me… and the speed and
frequency with which you hear this voice just doubles when you are closer to
God…
So don’t be worried if you hear this voice more often… in fact
rejoice… as it simply means… You are closer to God than ever before… And trust
me … It’s a beautiful feeling…
And reverse of this would be… if you constantly hear voices
like… “ Give it back to him… be rude… be angry… run after money… how can you be
satisfied with where you are “… Simply means you are farther away from God than
you really think you are… as God of all people cant say these things…
Peace… indeed peaceful is the feeling when I now know that I got
to please just one person – God… and rest all relations will fall into place…
As He will make sure it does :)
_________________________________Rashmi (31st
October, 2012)
