Keep the Change

Keep the Change_________________________________

Life not going your way,

Each moment slips by each day,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

A loved one moved out,

Didn’t feel fair in every sort,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

Someone hurt you today,

Cost of their act, you had to pay,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

Your countless call someone did ignore,

Closed was their hearts door,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

Someone didn’t stop by,

The times you were alone and did cry,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

Maybe they pushed you away,

And you didn’t deserve that anyway,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

They didn’t have time to stop for a while,

To be there for you and make you smile,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

And they were mad for nothing,

And left without saying a thing,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

Change at times does not make sense,

Makes life so intense,

I know it’s strange,

But anyway, keep the change…

_______________________Rashmi(27^th March,2011)

Gave it all Away

Gave it all Away______________________________________


For a change we did realize,

Our path was not so wise,

How could we see no way,

And simply gave it all away…

He… He may be was meant for me,

Or for the girl I used to be,

How could we see no way,

And simply gave it all away…

Laid our love on the floor,

Closed our hearts door,

How could we see no way,

And simply gave it all away…

All wait for a life time for the one,

And we didn’t wait but did choose to run,

How could we see no way,

And simply gave it all away….

Priorities went for a toss,

Moved on… thinking our paths wont cross,

How could we see no way,

And simply gave it all away…

Now we are together right,

Then still why no strength to fight,

Why cant we still not see a way,

And be there and so not give it all away…

____________________________Rashmi (27^th March, 2011)

Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts_________________________________

“Well planned life is the best life… you need to plan... and stick to the plan… be focused… " 


Little did I know how wrong this path is…

Yesterday was having a conversation with a friend… and he mentioned … “Rashmi... you know what… when I look back to day… the best things that happened to me were the things I never planned… times when I just followed my heart without any planning… like when I wanted to marry my gf… and my parents weren’t agreeing…. One day just went to the temple and got married… its 4 years now… and I still feel that it is the best decision of my life“

So true I thought… At times we just need to let go right... At times just not think way too much…. At times just do what you feel like doing without any reason… At times do things that does not make sense at all but simply because it makes you smile…

Just thought … slowing down is so very important… our plans ask us to run… keep running and miss the little things… The conversation just made me slow down, pause, step back a little and look at my life and say… “ Hmm.. maybe that’s the new shiny knife Ma was talking about”…  Maybe I never focused on the little things… little things that’s important to Ma more than knowing that her daughter just got promoted… 

So many little tiny miny thoughts creeping in my head and telling me “Here we are… the regrets of your life…”… No No…My list of regrets is not way too long… like I don’t regret pushing off the bulky Indian lady off the elevator last week for putting on a very weird Canadian accent ;) … Mann the put on accent… ;)…

:) … I know I am going down the lane of giving Gyaan… but mann I always end up meeting people who make me halt and think… like the other day I was on my way to an Indian grocery store from work… the cab driver turned out to be Indian… he started talking to me about his life… in the 30 mins drive I came to know his entire background… then he dropped us off… while returning  back to the hotel I again called for the cab… guess what… he only landed up again… while going back he mentioned that he is not just a driver… this is his business… and next month he is going back to india … 3 mnths vacations… I was like… lucky dude… who gets a 3 mnth vacations… he looked at me and said these vacations costed him his job… I was puzzled… he continued saying that about a year back he was working in this big firm… suddenly one day he got the news that his mom expired… he asked his bosses for 2 week leave… and they denied it saying that the work load is way too high and he can be given just 4 day leave… he was drowned with responsibilities with his family in Canada… he didn’t have the strength to leave his job… he missed his moms funeral… he said that’s the Biggest “Regret” of his life.. after a month this regret just didn’t let him sleep… one day he walked into his office and resigned and got into this cab business… and now he will never have to ask some boss to give him vacations… he can have it whenever he wants…. And for whatever time he wants…

I thought that some regrets like this is irreversible… “My Hobby-Thinking”… thought what a regret to bear for rest of his life… But he did take a big step of changing his work life all together… some step to cover up for his regret… We may not hold this big a regret… but little little regrets have just piled up way too much I feel…

Like... when was the last time I promised Ma that I wll be back home on time and actually did it… when was the last time I promised my friend that I would be there and just couldn’t make it as some other plan came up… when was the last time I told dad that I love him and I think he is the best dad in the world… when was the last time I told my bro that even though he is the most irritating person I have met and annoying also at the same time but he is the best bro I could ever have… when was the last time I actually spent some Quite time with my Lord just like that, without any demands from Him… and when was the last time I halted and looked into the mirror and tried to search for the girl who always knew what she wanted in life…

Phew…

PS: Oye Kaake… Senti naa ho… Title bol raha hai Chilla Chilla ke… “Random Thoughts”… It takes back to back screening of Himesh Reshamya movies to depress me… its that tuff you see ;)… And those who are already yelling why you had to go through this blog on a Saturday nite… Trust me… you are always fun to have around…;)

Love,

Rashmi

How Do I say Goodbye!

How do I say Goodbye_______________________________

Time slipped away,
Tomorrow turned to yesterday,
Was holding the tears since long,
All inside like an unsaid song...

Tell me now,
How do I say goodbye..

But the moment has come now,
Know its hard but will face this somehow,
Now am all set to cry,
As its time you will fly...

Tell me now,
How do I say goodbye..

Road ahead is gonna bend,
Not sure how do i harness the wind,
Always knew your dream,
Would take you far away from me...

Tell me now,
How do I say goodbye...

Fear that was building for years,
All set to flow now are my tears,
Not sure how to laugh instead of cry,
Someone please tell me its a lie...

Tell me now,
How do I say goodbye...

Space you have left behind,
Is one of its kind,
Trying hard to smile instead of cry,
As I see you move away with a deep sigh...

Tell me now,
How do I say goodbye...

__________________Rashmi(13th March,2011)

How You Doing :)

Wohhaaa…. Looks like its been more than a month since anything living has breathed in this blog… If anyone would have tried calling me in the past few months you would definitely get a recorded message which would say, “This line is temporarily disconnected from the world” … lol… trust me… no exaggerations as always here…

Not sure how ‘Tomorrow’ turned to ‘Yesterday’… Yeah had become a work zombie… If I would be in India I would still be one… Oopss.. did I miss to mention I am in Canada… Wat… enjoyin… hmm.. well.. at least enjoying the peaceful life… suddenly feels like the day has more hours… suddenly no more running… suddenly no more phone calls… suddenly no more rush to reach somewhere every minute… suddenly time for myself over the weekend… suddenly I talk to mom everyday now… more than what I used to even while I was in India… Yup I miss all… But back in India maybe I missed myself… Here I get more than just a moment to halt and think what I really want from life… At least 2 years back I knew my destination… Now my destination is right in front of me but I don’t want it anymore I feel… And if u ask me ‘ So, what do you want from life?’… Even though I have always been a great planner, my answer would be… ‘I don’t know?’… Yeah truly I don’t know what my destination is… so not sure which path or what plan should I make… so now living one day at a time… : )

Just read the blogs of my near and dear ones… just to check the updates in their life…. Just a quick comments…

Prachi… likh yaar… blog khaali khaali hai…

Maddu… thanks for mentioning me in the blog…. Way to go girl… Hope Patni does not think I am the one behind your resignation…

Racho… “Live Like a Drunkard”… awesome blog yaar…

So here I am going to give some gyaan after reading my friends blog… awesome lines…”Live like a Drunkard”… well don’t go by the literal terms… well ya ya… let me confess.. I did drink vodka in the flight… just to get good sleep ;)… so let’s not go there…

The Blog said… our destination should be very clear… Path clear ho naa ho… Drunkard knows his destination is the bar… he might not know the path… so while he is drunk he takes all possible paths… but finally reaches his destination and sits… relaxes and enjoys his “Drink”… : ) …

But for this … step 1 is … we should know our “Destination”…. Hehe… and as mentioned in the start of the blog… I am yet to complete Step 1… ;) …


PS: Btw missed asking you…. “How You Doing ?“

Love,
Rashmi