Sunday, June 24, 2012

Pretty Woman



Pretty Woman__________________________________________

After a really long time saw this movie again… The last time I saw was when I was back in college… Back then not sure why I liked the movie… But this time it was like watching the movie all over again with a different perspective…

Of course Richard Gere being one of the reasons… Yeah Yeah he is old and all that but there is something in his eyes which tells he is so genuine… and that reflects in his acting as well… This movie has a very different kind of love story… and the most important one being that both of them being so very different… we have heard of stories where in the 2 lovers are different from each other… be it in their personalities or in their nature… but here they belonged to two different worlds all together… She being a hooker and he a workaholic businessman… no time for life… so time for love outta question you see…

But as they say… if it has to happen it has to… One week love story of theirs… But the beauty of it is not the amount of time they spent… but the quality of time they did… especially the “Respect” with which he treats her though the entire world taints her to be a hooker… These days we find all kinds of emotions in relationships… but “Respect” rarely seen…

There were “moments” in this movie that touched me…

(1)   First one when he invites her to his place just like that… no agenda… all he knew was that night he didn’t want to spend alone… just shows in the world out there when work is all we have to fill our day… in those lonely night we need someone with whom we can just sit and talk… this moment in the movie just showed how much he was in need of that someone in his life that he had to ask a hooker to just be with him…

(2)  Second moment being when due to some silly misunderstanding she is all ready to leave the room, and he tells her “Stay”… She asks “why should I stay”… All he said was … “I saw you talking to an acquaintance of his… and he did not like it”… (Does not sound like a sensible reply I know) …

So…

She repeats… “I was just talking to him”… Again he just repeats “I did not like it”… in a very humble voice… just showed he has started to like her but he wasn’t prepared for questions about their relation… As he himself didn’t know where theirs was headed…

(3)   Third moment was when she tells him about her dream… Though a hooker her dream was a prince charming will come and rescue her one day… Strange but true… indeed all have dreams… in her case the dream sounds so very impossible… but yet she dreamt of it… and believed that it will come to pass…someday…

(4)  Fourth moment was when finally after a week she is ready to go… he gives her an offer to move to NYC… telling he will get her an apartment, a car and all the money she would need to shop… To this … all she replies .. If he would have given this offer a week earlier she would have accepted… but now … “She needs something more”… By “More”… she didn’t mean money… but she meant that… with the equation she had with him in last one week… she is looking for a relationship… and he wasn’t sure what he wanted… all he knew was he didn’t want to let her go… yet he lets her go…

(5)  Fifth and the last moment was the climax of the movie… wherein he proposes to her… All he says “So what happens when prince climbs the tower and rescues her…” To this she replies… “She rescues him right back” … beautiful end to an impossible love story…

I know sounds like a dream… but dreams do come true… mine did… my prince charming has indeed rescued me… And all I know right now is that he is already smiling after reading this :)

Love,
Rashmi

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Reason




Reason_____________________________________


After ages I sit down to write something… Well what triggered me… of course firstly my excellent health condition… Yes doctors have officially declared me insane today :P… so I can be excused for any crap I type today….. and secondly after ages I am ok to pour my heart out … no hiding… none…

I read a write up of my friend Naomi… Someone I haven’t met so far but somehow feel a connect  to her already…  This is worth sharing indeed… Here’s the link…


Thought to myself today…Somewhere I had stopped expecting from my loved ones… Tuff but this was my way to protect my oh so fragile heart from getting hurt… this just meant that being there for all but not expecting the same in return… Naomi’s write up just made me realize that this is not being “ourselves”… We need to expect best out of our loved ones even it implies being disappointed a zillion times… being hurt is just a trait that declares – Yes , we are still humans (Of course I need a certificate now to officially declare that after the doctor report I just mentioned earlier… lol)

On a serious note, yes something inside me used to hold me back…

Hold me back from expecting… Hold me back from trusting immensely (Like a child) like I used to earlier… Hold me back from loving the way I did earlier… (without any fear of being hurt)… Hold me back from expressing myself… (With the fear that it won’t be valued)… Hold me back from being the “Me” I knew earlier…

Each time I used to get up to just shake off all these thoughts… something held me back… felt as if  there is some sort of a chain I am tied up with which just pulled me back to where I was… every effort to move on… every effort to be myself was in vain…

And then… He happened :)

He saw the me which had all these amazing traits (lol)… and yet he came along… held my hand and promised me to deliver from all this pain…

But yet , since that day , he has been a friend , a guide and an inspiration for me . Without trying to teach me , he has given me something I could never give myself , something no amount of movies could give me , something no amount of hours immersed at work could give me .


He has given me a reason…

Reason to dream again,
Reason to trust again,
Reason to let go the pain,
Reason to accept myself,
Reason to ignore the rest,
Reason to live life,
Reason to move on,
Reason to stand again,
Reason to dance in the rain, (Trust me hated that )
Reason to smile again, (This time without any mask)

And above all

Reason to love again…

Probably everyone else thinks this relationship is following the normal , bollywood inspired storyline , and will end up fizzing out in a few months or years , replaced by the real questions such as who brings the kids from the school or why haven’t I still paid the telephone bill , but I know he will always be the same special one for me…

I don't know if 'You' are reading this , but if you are , I just want you to know that I have made a lot of mistakes , and my grammar is all wrong , and I crack jokes nobody gets , but I love you lots... . And I will never stop doing that …

Love,
Rashmi

Sunday, June 17, 2012

As its Raining Again





As its raining again


Again,
Pouring,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Feel the bliss,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Silent rain drops,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
The cool breeze,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Memories pass by,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Hot coffee and me,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Deep thoughts,
All day,
As its rainign again...


Again,
The blissful touch,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
The silent whispers,
All day,
As its raining again...


Again,
Just you and me,
All day,
As its raining again...


_______________________Rashmi(17th June, 2012)

Monday, June 4, 2012

Immune



Immune__________________________________



Patience
A virtue
They say
Gained
but
Drained
It all


Here
there
everywhere
People 
You find
Oh so
Judgemental


Outer 
appearance
All see
But the heart
Why do they
fail to foresee


Work
Is worship
They said
Did it all
And oh
The fall


Need 
Or greed
No one knows,
Selfish desires
of the heart
All do seek


Happiness
A rare gift
They say
But with everything
Why is this heart
So sad


Looking after
others feelings
Why do we fail
To take care
Of 
Our very own


Or at times
So selfish
That above us
We dont see
anyone else's
Sadness


A state
Where
noting bothers
A feeling
Oh so null
We see


What is this
Alien feeling
That makes you
Immune to
Anything
And everything


A strange 
Feeling
Absolutely
Null
Empty
Totally Empty


_______________________________Rashmi(04th June 2012)