As I walk away

As I walk away

Null,

Totally Null,

Feel,

Numb…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Search,

As I search,

Some space where,

I can breathe…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Strong,

I proclaimed,

But today,

Feel so weak…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Tired,

Tired Of explaining,

Myself,

To all…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Words today,

Just not coming out,

Easily,

So today…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Tears that was,

Locked up,

Today,

Flowing so freely…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Eyes,

Searching,

Waiting,

To be taken away…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

Silence,

That’s all I have,

To offer,

Today…

So…

Please forgive me,

As I walk away…

___________________________Rashmi (22nd September, 2012)

Lord to Me

Lord to Me_______________________________


Lord

Take it easy,
Dont get dizzy,
You have to learn,
So many virtues to earn...

Me

Its been the same,
Same old story,
Each time i get up,
None offer their hand...

Lord

Its not easy,
I know,
To be calm,
When somethings going on...

Me

When I wanna talk,
Always,
Always,
I am ordered to listen...

Lord

Why do you bother,
What you have today,
Is not gonna last,
When you come to me...

Me

I always ignore,
Pile it up inside,
All times cried,
But none hear me Lord...

Lord

Still
Be Still
I am there with you
Sit down take it slowly...

Me

All tell Lord,
Tell what you feel,
And when I do so,
They turn away Lord

Lord

They aint wrong,
Neither are you,
If you really love me,
Then let it all go...

You are young,
Thats your fault,
Life is long,
Its not gonna be easy

These worries will fade,
Wouldnt even matter,
Later,
So why get dull...


Me

Only you Lord,
Understand me,
And dont run away,
After listening to me...

I have given up Lord,
On lot of my wishes,
So that your will,
Comes to pass...

And I dont regret it,
Even for a second,
But never leave me,
Or ever forsake me Lord....


Lord

Have trust,
Have faith,
I have plans 
To prosper you...

Ignore now,
Its silly ego humans keep,
Your happiness is not in things,
Remember that...

I will never leave you,
Nor forsake you,
I am always there with you,
Right besides you...


Me

All ask me to dream Lord,
And when I do so,
They push me back saying,
How can you dream...

If they were right,
I would agree,
But its them Lord,
So I have to go away...

Few even agree Lord,
Then they potray,
It was a favour,
My will gets drained then Lord...

Lord

My child,
Dont bother,
I have already said,
And again I tell you...

This world will wither,
All things in them will wither,
All people will wither,
But me... I will be with you forever...

Dont worry,
Let it go for once,
Let all be happy,
And I will keep you happy... :)

______________________________Rashmi(03 Sept 2012)

The Will

Had a heart to heart talk with an old friend... or rather... my friend who knows me the most... Just penned down what she said... 

Mother,

You got to listen,
I am your mom,
How can you go ahead,
Does my happiness does not matter...

Daughter,

I wish for one thing,
And I plead,
Please give it to me,
I ask for none...

Mother,

How can you be so selfish,
And not care about my will,
How dare you not agree,
And time and again disobey...

Daughter,

I have heard your every will mamma,
But please dont ask me,
To give up on this one,
Will of mine...

Mother,

Above my life,
You value yours,
Dont you care about,
Things I have done for you...

Daughter,

Dont say that mamma,
You mean the world to me,
But you are asking me today,
To give up on my world...

Mother,

I have nothing to tell you,
You are no longer my blood,
Knowing that your will is all that matters,
Me... I mean nothing to you...

Daughter,

Ok mamma, you mean a lot to me,
You know that,
How can I keep my will,
When you are not happy mom...

Mother,

I know the best for you,
You will never regret it,
I know what will keep you happy,
So please follow my will...

Daughter,

Mom, I am giving you the "Best" of me,
After this none of my wish is important to me,
Anymore....
You have your will and my will as well...

After few years...

Mother,

You aint the same anymore,
Nothing matters to you,
You dont react to things,
Do you have any wish or none...

Daughter,

Mom I just had one wish,
And I have already surrendered,
Now I got none,
So smile... You got your will done...

___________________________Rashmi (03rd September, 2012)

Good with Goodbyes

Good at Goodbyes______________________________

Come closer,

Can you see why I cant talk,

Can you see how I smile to hide,

Can you see the count of my friends but,

Can you see the count of freiends I rely on,

Can you see my soul is dead inside...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Come closer,

Now tell me,

Can you see I have hidden fears,

Can you see these are fears I cant express,

Can you see I just cant express anything,

Can you see I am dead emotionally,

Can you see I am alive only spiritually...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Come closer,

Can you see I try each day that things matter to me,

Can you see I try each day to feel again,

Can you see I try each day to dream again,

Can you see I try each day to wish for somethings again...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Come closer,

Can you see my will does not matter to me,

Can you see hurting anyone is not what I want anymore,

Can you see I have already hurt a lot of people already,

Can you see I cant take any more guilt and burden...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Come closer,

Can you see I am tired of being upset,

Can you see I am tired of crying,

Can you see I am tired of dreaming,

Can you see I am tired of everything...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Come closer,

Cant you see why I wanna live my way,

Cant you see these are little things that make me happy,

Cant you see these are moments that make me smile,

Cant you see these are the only things that's making me alive again...

Now you know why,

I am good with Goodbye...

Dont come closer... 

Dont try to find anything,

Dont try to push me back,

As I fall easily these days...

Know that...

I am "not" that good with Good byes....

______________________Rashmi(03rd September, 2012)

Still

Inspired by the hymn - Still - By Hillsong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-8TD0HaLfg

Still________________________________

Be with me,

Do not flee…

Still…

I will be still

And know you are God…

Give me rest,

In midst of quest…

Still…

I will be still

And know you are God…

Be my eye,

Help me see…

Still…

I will be still

And know you are God…

Hold my hand,

Help me stand…

Still…

I will be still

And know you are God…

Please be near,

Help me hear…

Still…

I will be still

And know you are God….

Hold me,

Make me free…

Till then… Still…

I will be still

And know you are God…

___________________________Rashmi(30th August, 2012)

3 Magical Words

Its been ages that I have penned down something.... 

Got my hands on notebook of a school kid... when I was going through the same i could see all possible colors .... all possible remarks of the teacher... But one page just made me stop...

Exercise for that day was ... write 3 magical words on a picture of a flower... towards the left side of the page I could see the flower drawn ofcourse in the color which i so love.... PINK... (being sarcastice here ok ... hehe)

The flower had 3 petals... and inside the three petails were the three magical words scribbled 

1. Please
2. Sorry
3. Thank You :)

I just stared at that page for a while... Little things taught in school... Little minds moulded to see a beautiful world.... but the scary truth that the world out there is not this humble... 

3 magical words indeed so true... how many of us remember this... and how many of us find the need to say this... especially to our loved ones... 

I guess best teachers for our fast generation today are these kids... they are learning what we have forgotten long back...

______________________________Rashmi (10th August, 2012)

Raindrops

Raindrops__________________________________________


Raindrops,
Softly falling down,
Each drop,
Makes a sound,
As it hits the roof...


Tap... Tap... Tap...


Our heart,
Each time,
Makes a different song,
Each time we listen,
To the same rain drops...


At times,
It sounds like a sad song,
With a slow beat,
Feel sad and sigh...


At times,
It sounds like a happy song,
Bringing back sweet memories,
Tender thoughts and smiles...


At times,
It sounds like a love song,
Tender, romantic and sensual,
Makes you dance in the rain...


So...


Most of the times, 
The heart decides,
Which song it makes,
Each time
Out of the rain drops...


But...


Sometimes you have to choose,
A song,
And the choosing,
Isn't easy...


______________________________Rashmi(26th July, 2012)