How to say GoodBye

Watching my dad today, just made me realize there is so less time... for the moment when I will gone away from my home... Maybe I wouldn't be able to see him daily... This struck me hard... Each day which I live is taking me closer to the day I will have to leave my family... New kind of pain is creeping in...


This song came in my mind...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNe59AD_K7Q

How to say Goodbye_________________________________

Time is slipping away,

Each day,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going be hard to say goodbye…

Few tears,

Zillion unknown fears,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

Building up for years,

Are these river of tears,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

Dreams of mine I knew,

Will take me away from you,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

You love me lot I know,

And I love you more,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

You held me tight,

Till I could fly,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

So much to say,

Time is falling short each day,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

Why this deep pain,

Driving me insane,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

How can I smile dad,

When I am sad,

How hard I try, today I fail to lie,

It’s going to be hard to say goodbye…

Tell me where...the road ahead is gonna bend,

How to harness up the wind..

How to say good bye…

_______________________________Rashmi (21^st May 2012)

Indeed, how Nice it would be

Indeed , how Nice it would be_________________________________


Reaching the climax,

Of a novel,

If life may have turned,

So quickly and easily,

How nice it would be…

Every night in my dream,

Wishes come true,

If in reality,

It was realizable,

How nice it would be…

People seek and find,

Their selfish interests,

If someone had called me,

Or paid a visit with no motive,

How nice it would be…

At times wise men,

Take time to realize simple verses,

If only they understood,

The words which an insane like me could…

How nice it would be…

People come and try to take,

My heart that looks oh so bright,

If only someone knew the darkness inside,

And still take my heart for sure…

Indeed... How nice it would be…

_______________________________Rashmi(10^th April, 2012)

How Can I B Angry Lord

So guys and gals... I am backkkk... from hibernation... On the eve of  "Good Friday"... Socha Shubh Din pe Shubh Shuruvaat karuu ;) ... So all those who have already bought some rat poison to kill themselves as ur tired of missing me... and all those who are reaching hospitals due to depression... hold on... i am here... ;)

How can I be angry with you Lord…

Life did go for a toss in the past,

But my faith in you lord did last,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

People who promised to be with me forever,

Left mid way and were to be seen never,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

Reasons people gave to not be there you see,

All they could think was just flee,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

Life with no hope did find a way,

It just got better day by day,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

Just cant believe that I am smiling again,

No more pain, no more tears in the rain,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

No more fear to start something new,

Darkness seems as small as a dew,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

My god, you are bigger than my problems I know,

You will be there in my lowest low,

Tell me how can I be angry with you Lord,

As you were with me, you did keep your word…

People are destined to enter our lives for a reason,

They mite be forever or might be for some season,

But you will be there now and forever my Lord,

So will never will be angry with you, that’s my word :)

________________________________________Rashmi (18^th April, 2010)

Good Bye!

Sabbatical Period

Yarron, time for a break… Break from writing I mean… I know, I know my writes is like your daily soap… All tadka of your life right ;) … But it’s time for my break which I take once in a year from writing…

I have already posted requirement for a tenant for this blog… many applicants in queue… I have finalized someone to take care of the blog… so that Mr.Spider does not start living without any lease ;)

So guys and gals… here I go… will be back soon…. Indeed with a bang…

Needless to say… Miss me a little… and I will miss you all more… for sure :) ... I usually dont promise anything... But this time - I promise :)

_______________________Rashmi(15^th March, 2012)

Mother-Daughter

Mother-Daughter...

Mother,

Why the rush to move away,
When I was there for you every single day,
You are young, so be calm for now,
Don’t make a hasty decision somehow…

Daughter,

As always, today also I fail to explain,
When I want to talk it out, u are turning away again,
Somehow until now, I have lived for others mom,
For once I wanna be with myself, cmon…

Mother,

I know what you are going through,
This phase I have seen, it’s not new,
I also know its not going to be easy,
But just relax my dear, don’t get dizzy…

Daughter,

From you I learnt so much of the right,
To live life with a smile, give it a tuff fight,
But I also learnt some of the wrong,
To keep things inside, you know I am so tired of being strong…

Mother,

You have a long way to go dear,
In that journey I won’t be near,
Find a guy, do marry him,
I know a perfect family has always been your dream…

Daughter,

You know mom, hate to say this but your life scares me,
So from marriage I always did flee,
I have kept so much of these things inside,
Never cried, though alone with no one beside…

Mother,

I know I always failed to tell you,
I always failed to express my love for you,
I was too busy raising you and your bro,
All alone, without your dad it wasn’t easy you know…

Daughter,

But mom what about you, what about bro and me,
What about your married life that did flee,
What about the moments he missed seeing us being born,
What about the fact that you were all alone …

Mother,

But now he is back right,
Right with us, in front of our sight,
He is trying to make up for being away,
Don’t you think we need to give him a chance in every way…

Daughter,

Mom, love can’t be built overnight they say,
I just can’t connect to him now; I try but fail everyday,
He loves me I know, but I feel he is a stranger to me,
I just cant open up to him you see…

When we were kids, you took us to ISD booth every Sunday,
And tell us, ‘That’s your dad… Hello Daddy…you got to say’,
Little did we know who the person on the other end was?
Little did we know why were we talking, what was the cause…?

Every month end, a huge parcel arrived at home remember,
New clothes, new toys, oh those chocolates did surrender,
Back then I thought my life rocked, as my friends never got all of this,
Little did I know, in the bargain dad’s love I did miss…

I know it must have been hard for dad and you somehow,
But it’s harder for me to ignore all of this now,
I am happy that at least now you are getting to live your married life,
Finally you have your husband with you; you get to be dads wife :)

Mother,

And you think moving outta home is the best way out,
Why don’t you just let go, in the past why are you caught,
I promise, we will make up for the times we were wrong,
For all those times you had to be strong …

Daughter,

I love you mamma, and I love dada too,
But I need to move out; I want to start new,
I will be back, this I promise you, don’t feel low,
But for now I have to go ….

Mother,

Can you please give me one chance,
Dont turn away, give me another glance,
You are mamma's princess right,
How can I live with you away from my sight...

Daughter,

Your words make me weak,
With you alone my solace I can seek,
I am not going anywhere mamma I promise,
I will be right here with you and fulfill your every wish...

But mom, moments in life teach us,
So much,
Moments help us know us,
What we really are,
Greater the blow… Greater the learning…
You once said right…
But you didn’t tell me….
When will these blows end?
I have always been the strong one,
In the family,
Though being the youngest,
I should have lived a carefree life,
Accepted things.. Good and bad,
Loved infinitely,
Even let it go with immense calmness…
Lived all the blows mom,
But now…. I have to go…

Tired of smiling mama,
Everytime when something,
Goes wrong,
Always wanted to cry,
But thought smiling is better,
For once I wanna be me mama,
Please let me go...

I am little too tired of being strong mom,
Can you please hug me mama for once…
One last time before I leave...
I will be back… but for now…
Please let me go…

PS : I Love You Mom... More than you will ever know...and I know I will fail to show

Why do I feel like a fool?

Why do I feel like a fool?

Lord, why the abrupt change,
Strange,
Indeed a new fight,
Now I know I am your blessed child right?

But, why do I feel like a fool again?
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why did words change,
Strange,
Indeed a test of faith,
In the moment oh so late…

But, why do I feel like a fool again?
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the surety change,
Strange,
Indeed a shock,
With the click of the clock…

Indeed, feel like a fool again
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the sanctity change,
Strange,
Patience test, is it now,
When I was least prepared somehow…

So feel like a fool again
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the promise change,
Strange,
Indeed, my dumb to believe in it,
When for me it’s always been a misfit…

Totally feel like a fool again,
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, only “You” keep your word,
My best friend, my daddy God :)
You never let go with any change,
Strange :)

With you I am no longer a fool again,
And I feel no more of the flickering pain :)

____________________________Rashmi(15th March, 2012)

Best of Me - Nicholas Sparks

Usually after reading any Nicholas Sparks book I have loads to write about it... Somehow for his latest release "Best of Me"... I seriously got nothing to say... Speechless this book got me... and to top it... I just couldnt complete this book in a go... within few days... it practically took me 2 months.... just too hard to complete.... 

Please dont get any ideas... it wasnt boring... but this was indeed "best" of nicholas sparks so far.... if you are into reading... you know that few lines in the books hit you hard... but what do you do when every line in the book hits you hard... ;) ... This book is of that kind... Phew.... 

Bravo Rashmi!...You finally reached the finish line... ;)... 

Here are few quotes from the book.... I love the most :)

“That's why I loved being with you. We could do the simplest things, like toss starfish into the ocean and share a burger and talk and even then I knew that I was fortunate. Because you were the first guy who wasn't constantly trying to impress me. You accepted who you were, but more than that, you accepted me for me. And nothing else mattered-- not my family or your family or anyone else in the world. It was just us.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“Don't take my advice. Or anyone's advice. Trust yourself. For good or for bad, happy or unhappy, it's your life, and what you do with it has always been entirely up to you.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“Everyone makes mistakes, even if some are worse than others. Accidents happen.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“I don't know that I've ever felt as happy as I did that day, but then again, it was always like that when we were together. I never wanted it to end.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“Because you aren't just someone I loved back then. You were my best friend, my best self, and I can't imagine giving that up again." He hesitated searching for the right words. "You might not understand, but I gave you the best of me, and after you left, nothing was ever the same.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“Everyone wanted to believe that endless love was possible. She’s believed in it once, too, back when she was eighteen. But she knew that love was messy, just like life. It took turns that people couldn’t foresee or even understand, leaving a long trail of regret in its wake. And almost always, those regrets led to the kinds of what if questions that could never be answered.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“Please don't ask me to go with you, because if you do, I'll go. Please don't ask me to tell Frank about us, because i'll do that, too. Please don't ask me to give up my responsibilities or break up my family; I love you, and if you love me, too, then you just can't ask me to do these things. Because I don't trust myself enough to say no.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

"Forever"... He had carved the word on the workbench. A teenage promise, nothing more, yet somehow he had been able to keep it alive even after 20 years. She could feel the strength of the promise now.

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

“I gave you the best of me, he'd told her once, and with every beat of her son's heart, she knew he'd exactly done that.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me

PS: Dont expect me to pen down the story this time guys... I wouldnt be able to do it :)... Apologies :)

Love,
Me who Else :)