Why do I feel like a fool?

Why do I feel like a fool?

Lord, why the abrupt change,
Strange,
Indeed a new fight,
Now I know I am your blessed child right?

But, why do I feel like a fool again?
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why did words change,
Strange,
Indeed a test of faith,
In the moment oh so late…

But, why do I feel like a fool again?
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the surety change,
Strange,
Indeed a shock,
With the click of the clock…

Indeed, feel like a fool again
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the sanctity change,
Strange,
Patience test, is it now,
When I was least prepared somehow…

So feel like a fool again
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, why the promise change,
Strange,
Indeed, my dumb to believe in it,
When for me it’s always been a misfit…

Totally feel like a fool again,
Why the flickering pain?

Lord, only “You” keep your word,
My best friend, my daddy God :)
You never let go with any change,
Strange :)

With you I am no longer a fool again,
And I feel no more of the flickering pain :)

____________________________Rashmi(15th March, 2012)