As I Still Wait…

One Fine Day ... I asked my Lord 

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
 

Master so gently you said, "Wait." 

"Be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

As I Still Wait…

You taught me the meaning of love,

But failed to teach me how to hate somehow,

So many complains I have in store,

But while I wait for you I need nothing more…

You taught me the sanctity of commitment,

But failed to teach me how to end this advent,

So many words are hidden in my hearts core,

But while I wait for you I need nothing more…

You taught how to forgive when I was wrong,

But failed to teach me how to hold on the grudge for long,

So many tears my eyes have wore,
But while I wait for you I need nothing more…

You taught me what it means to hold on,

But failed to teach me how to move on,

So many questions are hidden behind my hearts door,

But while I wait for you I need nothing more…

You taught me when you are with me I will be fine,

But failed to teach me how to live when you aren’t mine,

Eyes are heavy and all set to pour,

But while I still wait for you I need nothing more…

I told you I will wait, for life long I will wait,

Knowing strongly that you aren’t the one in my fate,

Still dread the day when someone would enter my life,

Maybe then I will stop this wait, but till then… I will still wait…

________________________________Rashmi (18^th May, 2008)

Broken Heart Beneath A Smiling Face...

 P.S : This poem is totally fictitious ... It has no resemblance to anybody living or dead... If you connect to this poem then its totally coincidental ;)
 

Broken Heart Beneath A Smiling Face...

When I sit down thinking about you,

Time flies by and this fact isnt new,

You are still a part of me I know,

That’s the reason at times I feel totally low...

Remember the day u walked away for sumthing new,

Hope of you coming back was as small as a dew,

How could you ask me to move on so easily dear,

Didn’t you miss me when I was no longer near...

You aren’t worth it people around me always said,

They knew that ur love for me wud be dead,

Maybe I was busy thinking of you and calling you mine,

Thought my love was all that’s needed and everything will be fine...

Wanted to prove that they were so very wrong,

And wanted this journey with you to last for long,

But didn’t no that this storm would force you to surrender,

And leave me all alone to simply weep and wander....

Knew that you aren’t the right one since the start,

But this never became a reason for me to part,

You had promised to be a part of me forever,

And be with me for long and leave me never....

Its been ages that you have gone away,

But still ur memories are the reason for me to stay,

Maybe I m a fool to hold on and wait for you,

But true love dies hard... this is understood by very few...

Friends... u ask me to cross the thin line,

And say tht its me who is holding back not wanting to feel fine,

Hey guys its not that I haven’t tried,

But all those times I said I have moved on.. I have simply lied....

“Love happens just once”... is what people say,

And these lines are true in every possible way,

Even today as I look in the mirror and simply gaze,

All I see is a broken heart beneath a smiling face...

________________________________________Rashmi

This is for you Lord...

Sometimes we speak before thinking and end up hurting our loved ones be it intentionally or unintentionally...  in anger our mouth speaks faster than our mind... this fact is realized by very few people...

 

This is for you Lord...

When matters go astray,

I simply kneel down to pray,

Then I see things falling into place,

With no problems that I can trace…

Few people hurt with such ease,

As they lie in our heart without any lease,

We have one mouth and two ears,

Then why do we speak without any fears…

Speaking your heart out is fine,

But the thorny words aren’t always divine,

So before speaking up think twice,

This thought is true for all those who are wise…

Sometimes expecting does hurt,

As humble souls are devoid of dirt,

But living this life have taught us a lot,                                  

That expecting here isn’t true without any doubt...

“Friends for life time”.... isn’t an awesome jargon,

As they depart... yes, really... don’t beg your pardon,

So every moment here needs to be stored,

To remember them when we sit down getting bored...

 

Finally arrived the day when I found the one,

With whom I could share all my sorrows and fun,

Yes... He’s in my soul my life my heart,

His name is God; he is simply my part....

Can you find a friend with so much care?

Who will all our sorrows share?

Yes so now life has become so simple,

With no fear and no reasons to fumble.........

____________________________Rashmi (13^th October, 2006)

Real Me ...

Real Me…

It may seem that I am carefree and strong,

Going through life as if nothing is wrong,

But no one knows the real me,

They only know what I let them see…

Often my smiles are real and sincere,

Sometimes it helps me hide my fears dear,

I have a miraculous mask kept ready,

Which I use when my life isn’t steady…

Some pains are so intense and deep,

Often I wish to just let go and weep,

But I hold all of these deep inside,

And hold those tears and keep them aside…

My anger is a lie but plays a peak role,

Helping me hide my extremely delicate soul,

Hypocrisy is one thing that’s not in my case,

So people abiding by it don’t impress me with ease… 

Always wish to be a part of this noisy crowd,

Where I can share my infinite dreams aloud…

Want so much that my unbiased views be accepted,

But this world which is orthodox declares it rejected…

I seek for someone special who finds the real me,

And does not hold in dislike after what they see,

The real one in me has few flaws I used to hide…

But it’s no longer residing in me hidden inside…

_________________________________ Rashmi (31st August, 2006)

Loving the Pain ...

Dedicated to all those people who have lost their love... Well... Good news is ... you can move on and accept what God has in store for you... God does not expect that you dont mourn about ur loss.. sure there are times of pain... But all God wants to ask us is 'How long are you gonna mourn?' ... Some relationships didnt work out... does not mean that life has ended... And remember that what you have been through is not a surprise to God... All he wants is get up and get going... Life is waiting for u... :) 

Loving The Pain...

Listen dear; I can never be in love,

This phase has ended long back 4me somehow,

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Love happens just once, rest is life ... they say,

These words are true in every possible way...

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Can never be a part of your fate,

It’s just not possible now as it’s too late,

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Yes I am lonely and my heart has this void space,

But I will never let anyone fill that place,

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Guess you haven’t realized until now,

That I am still in love with my dead love,

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Pain is the gift my love has given me,

Let me have it, don’t take that away I plea,

So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

No doubt I am happy when I am with you,

Chances of which ... after him... was as small as a dew,

But don’t know why, I still want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Maybe u are here to lit up my life that is dim,

Maybe it’s high time to move on and forget him,

But still... So don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

Its not that I haven’t tried dear,

But holding your hand fills me with fear,

So I tell you, don’t fall for me, I want to live in pain,

Don’t want to go through the same lane again...

__________________________________________Rashmi

Don’t wait for me...

Well some writes are not inspired by my own life... but from the lives of my near and dear ones..This one too is what my friend has to tell to a guy in love with her :)

Don’t wait for me...

Today as I sit down to tell you again,

That though weird I love this pain,

You keep telling me forget him as it’s too late,

I know its true...But just for him I will wait...

Don’t fall for me please ... I plead,

I can never give you the care you need,

I have already showered all my love on someone,

All I am left now with is a void feeling that’s in ton...

Loving you would mean forgetting him forever,

This is something I can think of never,

Move on is all I can tell you for now,

As moving on from my part is impossible somehow...

Day I realized that you are thinking of me as more than a friend,

Tried showing my untrue self to put your love to an end,

But somehow this fake behavior didn’t matter to you,

My rudeness and anger was falling on deaf ears I knew...

Your care tells me; lucky will be your girl you see,

But I know this pinches you, but that girl can’t be me,

My heart is totally scared of any new sight,

As deep down his memories is what I have held tight...

Don’t wait for me nor think of me when I am not near,

As I know the pain of waiting for someone dear,

Maybe someday my heart you might just win,

But right now thinking of someone else for me is nothing but a sin... 

_________________________________________ Rashmi

Unsaid Story... (Placement Time )

 Often in this corporate jungle we feel like taking a halt and thinking where we are heading... But little did this thought crossed our minds while college placements were going on ...

Now that we are working in top companies still there is something missing ... maybe we have gone up the ladder... and left few people close to us behind....  

 Unsaid Story...

As I sit down thinking about the past,

I realize tht people around me were the best cast,

Friends... my pillars were all around me,

Holding them tight set me tension free...

Placements days I still remember,

Filled us with tension and fear,

Somewhere we all knew that we are gonna part,

This one thought we hid deep inside our heart....

Then came the results of the dreadful race,

That would tear us apart with no time to trace,

“Friends For Lifetime...” is what we believed in,

So forgetting anyone would be  an unforgivable sin...

All were spilt in TCS, Mastek, Infosys, Patni, Polaris, Attos ...

WIPRO was where I landed and was all set to bid Mumbai ADIOS,

Farewell I still remember passed away like a mute song,

As moving to Bangalore for me was like a journey so very long...

Lords will was what I was looking forward to each day,

Didn’t get that though in any way,

Kept wondering if Wipro was the rite place for me,

He answered “NO”, so the thought of WIPRO had to flee...

Prayed day in and day out for something new,

And the hope for a new job was as small as a dew,

Miracle is what I guess I m used to by now,

And there came the offer from LnT somehow...

WIPRO or LnT was the question I stood besides,

As WIPRO was the place where my heart resides,

But going against Gods will wasn’t possible for me,

So had to bid WIPRO goodbye with due plea...

Life has indeed been a roller costar ride since then,

“No Time” ... is the reason I give I don’t know since when,

Running in this race I halted to look around ,

Friends I used to talk about were no where to be found...

Gone are those days of peaceful long walks,

Simple fights and then those long talks,

Each one is running after something today,

Workplace has become home is all I have to say...

Finally what are we running after my friend,

Someday you will halt as this road has an end,

“Miles 2 go before I Sleep “... is what u say now,

Except money, in those miles u will loose everything somehow...

_________________________________Rashmi (January 28, 2008)