Gossh... I will be 25 ;)

Oh My God !!! (The F.R.I.E.N.D.S style)…….I will be 25 ;)

Must admit guys, my last 6 months in my new job has been my honeymoon period… Now I wonder what the hell was I thinking when I spent my glorious years… my life from the age of 21- 24 with my laptop in *** (Shhhhh… Cant reveal the name of my old company here… No rocket science … you guys can guess it though :P)

Back then,

My life was dedicated to work… I used to feel oh so proud working from 8AM to 12 at night… felt like I won the gold medal when I reached home at 12 at night and again would on my lappy to co-ordinate with my onsite counter parts… if ever I reached home by 9 PM… my brother would ask, “Half Day today?” ;) lol… Looking at the new serious me … working even on the weekends my mother asked me if I was actually nuts, or only looked like one ;)

On my 22nd birthday, wow… can u imagine where I spent most of my time… when my company had an amazing feature ‘Special Day Off’ (Holidays on ur birthday and anniversary) … well yes… I know… even I almost yelled real hard when I heard this rule for the first time… ;) … little did I know that I would end up working even on my birthday… Where in my parents were waiting with my moms fav choclate cake… well they knew me so well… they knew I would be late as always so might as well get something which they can enjoy ;)

And if all this is a chocolate cake, then the cherry on the cake was getting a call from my onsite team lead late at night to start with “Has the latest code been uploaded” instead of “Happy Birthday” or a courtesy “Hello” ;)…. (Insaaniyat ka zamaanaa hi nahi raha hai )

And now I know I am gonna turn 25 by the end of this year…. I even prayed last week that I know it’s difficult for God to answer all my prayers…. (As most of my prayer request would even make Virus of 3 Idiots laugh)… but this time I did give God 2 choice’s…

1… Help me sell Shampoo to Anupam Kher
2. Help me rewind my past 3 years…

There was a long pause …. Then God asked me when do I want to meet Anupam Kher for the shampoo deal… damnnn…

Turning 25 is so weird… One moment you are 24, and before you can finish the last bite of your fav pizzaa.. you turn 25 ;) … And by the next 5 year plan of our dear mr.government… you will be 30… Damn Damn Damn ;)

You know that you are 25 when your mom starts telling you… tell me if you have someone in your life… or should we find the one for you… mann the scariest question a girl has to face is this… You soon realize that marriage and kids are on the charts…

Now I wonder gone are the days when I thought choosing between 2 equally reputed engineering college was like solving some da vinci code… But naahh… Now I need to wake up to the fact that choosing a life partner is a decision as huge as Jupiter. And I need to find a guy who is happily excited to have a goofy girl like me in his life ;)

I mean, how do you know who is the ‘right’ person to share a life with, or, as they say, marry? Maybe I have let down many guys, but nobody understands that my own heart too looks like it was crossing a road and a truck hit it right where it hurts ;)… People, including those the closest to me, may dismiss it as a ‘Oh-it-happens-to-everybody’ , but I have had my share of dark clouds and I think I need to move someone to the center of my world (Right now , I got God.. my parents… my brother and my friends there) and build my life around it , make people happy , create a good life for everybody , you know , the filmi style… rainbows and butterflies . But before that, I need to decide who that person is, and that makes all my college exams look like little walks in a park...

It is easy to have coffee-movie-pizza thing with friends who are guys… But now I need to find a guy whom I understand and who understands me (Real me that is)… damn I am not funny always… stop laughing… I am serious ;) …. So where was I… yeahh understanding fiasco… so I need to find a guy who can decide much more than which pizza to order… And finding one is not easy… knowing that guys are not at all direct… complicated… way too fast… and have a secret shell always… ;)

You know this time I just asked God for a simple request… I asked Him to help me find this guy who is understanding… who is matured… who is a homely guy at the same time serious about his work… who would love me unconditionally… You know what God said… After THE long pause… he said.. “Let me re-consider your earlier prayer request of rewinding your life by 3 years… that should be easier…. “…. LOL… (Maybe the “Loving Unconditionally” thing drove Him nuts) …

Well if you know me well enof you know I can go on and on…. But its Saturday night…. and my mother is already staring me since past 10 minutes what the hell am I penning down with a smile… Before she thinks I have lost it completely let me sign off…

Cheers,
Rashmi _____________ (02nd Oct,2010)

Hurry Hurry Hurry… Hurry Om Hurry… ;)

Hey All,

Hope you are not in hurry atleast today… if Yes… Then on the top right corner click the Close button… ;) … if no then you rock… please proceed ;)

Hurry Hurry Hurry… Hurry Om Hurry… ;)

This world is in hurry you know,
I keep wondering why it is so,
Ah! Guess they have taken 2012 to heart,
Hence the panic, hence the dart…

Getting off the plane is what I love,
Well one I get to smuggle flight magazines somehow,
Thts one of the reasons mind you,
But the interesting parts starts, whats tht… do you have a clue…

People jumping off their seats you see and more,
You hear… ‘Watch it; will you pull off your suitcase off my toe?
Cell phones on… ‘Whatttttttttt… you haven’t sent the car yet’?
Makes me feel, maybe they got a meeting with the PM direct…

Enjoying this drama, as I lie in my seat,
Watching people stand on each others feet,
I wonder, ‘God… Jaldi kya hai boss’,
Maybe this plane blows up in 2 mins… Oh the loss ;) ….(Maybe I missed that announcement ;) )

PS: Plane scene ends… now lets screw the day to day scene…

Guy driving the White Linea wants to rush to office,
Hence the overtaking stunt… in so much ease…

PS: Loads of practice goes behind that stunt people …

Students in hurry reading the chapters one min before the exam,
Maybe this one answer will help them clear, hence the rush damn…

PS: Last chapter you read always ends up coming in the paper ;)

My boss in hurry to get the report,
Waiter at pizza hut in hurry to serve table number 5,
People sitting in table no 5 in hurry to eat,
At boarding gate people in hurry to get onto the plane,
When it lands, they are in hurry to get out of it...

PS : All are in the hurry to get somewhere, Few wanna enjoy the moment, very few dare…

Maybe these people know where they wanna go,
And hence they wanna get there really fast or so,
They maybe focused people, achievers you can say,
Desh ko aage badhaane walle log in all possible way … (LOL)

PS: you never know you might see these people someday on NDTV shaking hands with white people ;)

Or maybe I am a slow girl,
Who loves to get up each morning with a smile,
Who loves listening to music when she’s going to work,
Who thinks workplace need not be a serious zone,
Who loves to write about just anything which may interest nobody,
Who can switch from being fun loving to be serious at meetings,
Who thinks life also continues once you shut down your laptops,
Who does not wait for weekends to party, each day is day to party,
Who loves to laugh and cry whenever she feels like ( Who loves to wear a mask),
Who believes its best to be real… and live and do what you WANT to do,
Who has no interest in the world who wants to reach the stars,
Who has no interest in being in ‘Know it all’ types,
Who believes its imp to know yourself first, you do that... more than 50% battle is won…

PS: You see, I don't have a problem with the 'wanting to achieve things' thing. But what I don't understand is that why hurry ? Jaldi kya hai . Kidhar jaana hai ? I mean , life is not in the future . Life is now. This moment…

I have lived this ‘Hurry Om Hurry’ life long back,
People told me you do it, happiness you will get in stack,
I believed those jerks, and I landed being an engineer,
Now...Dying with a laptop is all that I fear… ;)

PS: This world defined happiness to me this way… mannn I could have told them ‘ You got to be kidding long back’… but I love giving it a try… I did give it a shot… how… go on and read…

Back in school people told me,
Happiness is getting 90% or more in boards,
I wasted my one long year to reach that weird figure,
Then people said that’s not it… (Liars i thought... )

Happiness is in being an engineer,
Like that’s a direct ticket to heaven or something,
But fool I was, I believed them all over again,
Became an engineer, c’mon stop laughing (Insaan hun main galti ho jaati hai)

Then the ‘Know it all’ said,
Journey is long, happiness is in working in top company,
I, being a fool religiously, got a job, was oh so proud, (yeah yeah control your laughs please)
Thought now I will get to know what happiness is all about….

Slogged slogged slogged…
Waited waited waited…
Happiness was no where to be seen,
Yes, laptop and my cubicle became my best friends… (Was this the happiness they were talking about, damnn)

Then the great people told me,
Happiness is going onsite… maybe US is the target,
And printing notes in dollars,
Guess the reasearches in US may have told them this happiness secret…

PS: Fir ghanti bajiii… I asked them…. Are u sure… sacchi muchii.. pakka.. Confirmed… this will give me happiness… (Finally my sarcasm i took seriously... and i quit listening to this world)

I quit my crazy job,
I rejected the onsite,
I accepted my new job (less work load mann)
And you know what… Now I am Really Happy…

 __________________________Rashmi (02nd Oct, 2010)


PS : So ladies and gentlemen, Untill now the world had been telling me what to do… those were the people who themselves didn’t know where they want to be… then how can they tell you how to get there…

Now I know happiness is not something you need to achieve… its something you feel.. deep down.. you need not crack CAT… need not goto IIM… need not earn 10+K ka package… Happiness is like you celebrate ‘Happy New Day’ each day.. rather than the once a year ‘Happy new year’…

You know what is happiness for me… For me happiness is just being ME… Nothing more nothing less… And to be happy I need not achieve anything as to be happy not much is needed… Some nice music with a cheese burger shuld be just fine ;)


Love you all...

Cheers,
Rashmi

Guy Sayz...

One of my friend narated me his love story... Sarcasm being his blessed gift... he did try to make it sound as one... I tried to capture the story from his perspective... Hope you guys love it too :)

PS: Read at your own risk ;)

Guy Sayzz...

It’s been 10 months and 14 days I guess,
When I knelt on the ground with loads of stress,
And she said a ‘Yes’, shocking me somewhere,
Made me believe in miracles right there …


PS: The calculation of the number of days is totally correct. Forgetting such a historical day would have left me dead ;)

A journey across half the globe,
Infinite fights like daily soap (I fought she listened) ;)
Parents melodramatic dialogues, with face red,
God, when they had to contact shehnai walla’s instead…

PS: Many things have changed… Don’t over think… let me define the ‘CHANGE’… ;)

Telephone bills ‘Changed’ by noticeable margin,
To the extend that my mom called this a sin,
Amount of driving ‘Changed’ around the city did grow,
Sight of her house was better view than what Taj Mahal wore;)

PS: Sorry Jahangir or Shanjahan… whoever built it…. ;)

Finally the doubt is cleared if I have to change baby diapers someday,
As I am instructed that I ‘HAVE’ to change it anyway,
Now I understand the movie ‘Confessions of a Shopoholic’,
Choice between 2 ear rings which are exactly the same did drive me sick…

PS: I gave up after looking at seven earrings, wondering how anyone could choose between things which are equally tiny, equally shiny and meant to be completely hidden under hair anyway.

But… apart from another ‘change’ that my fly almost fed me to dinosaurs after they knew about her… something inside me ‘Changed’…

First time someone put her faith in me,
First time someone thought I wouldn’t flee,
First time someone gave me the right to hurt her,
With the trust that I would not, if my memory is not blur…

PS: That someone must be very happy reading this (If she is reading this that is)… knowing that I hardly talk serious stuff… however hard this might be the first and last time today…. Yes you heard me right… first and last time … ;)

I imagined my life, watching HBO,
Eating pizzas, with a laptop or so,
Driving alone to work each day,
Living all alone, being ‘OK’ this way…

PS: Yes I was a useless failure, who could earn money and mimic Shahrukh , but was worse than a China made plastic bicycle when it came to reliability and trust.

My mirror showed me an image,
Indeed the face was a lil strange,
A guy who thought ‘walking away’ is a cool thing to do,
But somewhere ashamed at heart, nobody knew…

PS: Maybe I am exaggerating a little I know ;)

Then … She came along…
Independent, graceful, elegant lady entered my life,
With oh the sensitivity to heal and be my wife,
She had a heart that could absorb all the pain,
Yet tears of a stranger could drive her insane….

PS: In short, my complete , geometrical opposite.

Since then she has been my guide my friend,
With her around, I could be myself, nothing to pretend,
She gave me more than ‘N’ number of movies could offer,
If I could think of let her go then I would have been a duffer…

PS: But above all she gave me a ‘REASON’…

She gave me a ‘Reason’ to believe I too can last,
She did trust me in spite my past,
She gave me a ‘Reason’ to wake up at 4:00 AM,
Just to see if she has reached home as she usually does claim…

PS: Earlier I would not get up early even for a free sandwich…

She has given me a ‘Reason’ to feel special,
By trying to cheer me up when I go dull,
She has given me a ‘Reason’ to call her while I drive,
Though dangerous, I love to talk to her each moment, don’t know why…

PS: Please don’t tell her about my driving stunt ;)

I never cared the kind of guy I was,
Bunch of mistakes, never bothered about the loss,
Though she deserves someone better I feel,
She is a girl, now nobody on earth can steal…

PS: Because while a boy finds a girl who keeps him happy , this boy has found a girl he wants to keep happy .

____________________________Rashmi(28th Sept,2010)

Forgotten page in the Little Brown Notebook… (Teachers Day Special)

Dedicated to my dear teacher back in school... This write is dedicated to her ...

Forgotten page in the Little Brown Notebook

Life was so simple she wonders today,
When she was a child in late eighties,
Teacher asked…‘What you want to be?
Simple answer, “I want to be a good human being”…


That’s what she wrote in her little brown notebook…


Simple thoughts did surround her,
I will respect my elders,
I will say the truth,
I will be a good human being… So easy …


Six years old are innocent people,
They believe what thier teachers say,
Her teacher told her to be a good human being,
And she believed her teacher and just wanted to be one…


20 years later, the same child is writing this poem,
She is all grown up now,
She studied well, went on to become an engineer,
Working at a big company she is all settled today…


Over the years she has made many choices,
Good and bad, all has been in her share,
Not sure if it helped her evolve,
But all she knows is she has changed…


In the midst of the trigonometry lessons,
In the hue and cry of mechanics trauma,
It was easy to face the dinosaurs she thought,
Than the prolonged software engineering lectures…


She forgot what she had written in the little brown notebook,
Oh wait! Maybe she didn’t forget,
Maybe she overlooked what she wanted to be,
But she failed to care about it…


But why she stopped caring about it,
Because the world didn’t care who she was,
Nobody ever asked her the question again,
If she was a good human being, as she had promised…


She was better than others,
Faster than others, Sharper than others,
She thought that matters to the world,
And what the child in her believed didn’t matter to her…


But today she sits down to think of that child in her,
The child she had long forgotten,
Thinking if she can ever meet her again,
Talk to her again, be one with her again…

But today she has found her little brown notebook,
And she remembers what her teacher once told her,
Pages in this book is very clear to her today,
And she will be a good human being she knows…


Maybe wont be better than others,
Maybe not faster or sharper than others,
Maybe it won’t matter to this world,
But she will surely be a good human being…


_____________________________Rashmi (05 September 2010)

Dedicated to my teacher on ‘Teachers Day’

If This Your Last Day

If This Your Last Day

If this your last day on earth,
And no more chance of re-birth,
Think what will cross your mind first,
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you patch up with a friend so dear?
Whom you ignored, now, he is no longer near,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you say sorry, to a parent oh so far?
For being away, like a pinned up star,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you take away the words of hurt?
Showered on your love, was it worth?
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you make up for the false promise?
To be with your love, oh those moments you missed,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you wonder, why ambitions ruled your life?
Withered relation, will you try to mend with your wife,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would your senses at least now be alive?
To see your child’s wait back home for a while,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you stop being busy at work?
As time is less, and useless is the perk,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you think why did you forget to smile?
But now that you are dying, will you smile for a while,
Will this cross your mind first?
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…

Would you enjoy moments left, or undo the wrong?
As you see the end, end of life’s song,
Moving back to the earth’s crust,
As you turn to ashes, back to dust…


_________________________Rashmi(05 September 2010)

Distance

Distance

Just out of college life seemed so easy,
So many loved ones around, never felt so dizzy,
Was so sure where life was heading,
Little did I bother of the ending….

Journey started, roller coaster ride must say,
Work kept strangling me for no good each day,
Distance between me and my family did grow,
My priority list went for a toss, little did I know…

Past :) … well he was always there on my mind,
Shocked … thoughts of him I did find,
But, distance between his thoughts and me did grow,
My priority list went for a toss, little did I know…

Friends, well tried hard to keep them around,
But it got difficult to be there and always surround,
Distance between me and my friends did grow,
My priority list went for a toss, little did I know…

Lord, I didn’t spare you too, did I?
Kept ignoring your words, don’t know why,
Distance between me and you Lord did grow,
My priority list went for a toss, little did I know…

Now as I walk this boulevard, thinking why I flee,
Lost in time and in ME, why no place for WE,
"Distance between me and myself(soul) did grow,
In the garden of life, mirth seeds I failed to sow"...

_______________________ Rashmi (06th September, 2007)

Stay Open

Stay Open

Planners today have all aged,
Yet you see them caged,
Stay open, look above,
God is pouring down his love...


One dream breaks, then why scream,
Get up, dream another dream,
Stay open, halt for a while,
God is looking down with a smile...


One job turns you down,
Go apply for another, quit the frown,
Stay open, look for a sign,
God is saying, everything will be just fine...


Break-offs, few can resist,
C'mon start living, dont just exist,
Stay open, love someone new,
God has already chosen the one for you...


Being sorry for ourselves, reasons are plenty,
But we dont have the right to do so, as life aint empty,
Stay open, look out for the cure,
Gods plans are bigger than ours for sure ...


Disappoitments you go through,
Are already planned, so dont get blue,
Stay open, look beyond the closed door,
God already has the solution all set to pour...


Let it go, dont hold on,
HE knows you even before you were born,
Stay open, be open to/for all,
God wants you to trust HIM for once and avoid the next fall...


_________________________________Rashmi(2nd September,2010)